Through the rise and falling apart, we discover who we are.

Ever feel like making a blog entry, but have no ideas to write about?  I find I feel that way quite often.  I enjoy sitting down and putting my thoughts into words, I just never feel like I have any thoughts worth writing about.  Do I just not think about things deeply enough?  Do I  not realize when I'm thinking about something I want to write about?

 

This brings me to another point, something I've believed for a few years now.  First of all, don't get me wrong, I like my career field, I liked going to an engineering school.  But, I think technical schools and programs limit creativity.  I used to love creative writing.  At times, I have looked back at papers I wrote in high school, and I actually have a difficult time believing that the words on the page came from me.  I went to college for civil engineering - a world of variables and equations, where everything is looked at in terms of which formula to use to reach the desired outcome.

 

I have tried to write, just for the fun of it, a few times since college, and it seems my vocabulary and my ability to convey my thoughts eloquently has practically disappeared.  Maybe it's like anything else, a foreign language for example.  If you don't use it, you lose it.  But I also feel that the problem solving techniques used in such math-based fields can really have a stifling affect on creativity, and that saddens me.  I'd love to be able to write the way I used to.  I just don't have any ideas.